This is the first time in ages I have felt so close to the breadline. In at least two years I'd say. I am watching every penny. And it's all because we decided to go away next week. My OH keeps saying 'are you looking forward to it?' and I really want to say 'actually, no because after changing up our euros I ahve next to no money in my account to come back to!' Instead I just say 'yes, but I am concerned about my bank balance when we return'. It's not even an expensive holiday - we are staying with friends at their apartment so it's costing us nothing in accomodation. And I am only just paying the OH back for the flights. But I seriously feel like cancelling the whole thing because I'm so stressed about finances and haven't been for such a long time, I hate it.