I?m doing my training year in teaching and due to my current circumstances, I?m finding it really tough and questioning whether I?ve done the right thing. I loved all my previous teaching placements and felt that I was absolutely suited to teaching. However, the school I?ve been placed in is very small and my mentor is also the HoD and the only other person in the dept, besides myself. They made it clear from day 1 that I wasn?t welcome and my first 6 weeks were hell. I was snapped at, constantly put down and made to feel awkward and uncomfortable, which came as a surprise as I have always had positive relationships with those I work with, and I?m still in touch with HoD?s from previous placements. It has not helped that there are serious behaviour issues in the school, which I have had to try and figure out on my own, without support. Since speaking to my mentor about our relationship, things have slowly improved, which is encouraging. I?m getting positive feedback (although muted) and seem to be doing generally ok. However, the horrendous start to the term has had a detrimental effect on my confidence and naturally, my lessons and rapport with the pupils, (who I have heard discussing how much they miss and liked their previous teacher who has now left). Despite trying my best to put on a brave front, planning to the max (heavy timetable with only 2 in the dept - I could not be working any harder), using sanctions and rewards, trying my best to strike a rapport with the pupils and starting lots of extra-curricular activities etc, I am struggling to distinguish whether it is simply the environment that I?m teaching in that I?m finding so difficult, or just teaching? Just feeling so isolated and alone, and unfortunately there is no one further up the school I can really turn to, as the DHT has a reputation for making people?s lives even more difficult when a sniff of a grievance/ negative comment is raised. I know that I went into teaching for the right reasons but I?m struggling to clarify things. Anyone else in the same position or can offer any advice? Thanks x.