Hello. About 10 years ago when I was a teenager, I was diagnosed as Bi-Polar with a Borderline Personality Disorder. I've worked so hard and been through a lot to get to where I am today. I guess right now, when I'm having a real hard time regulating my emotions in repsonse to a series of stressful and hard issues I've had to deal with recently, I'm struggling to accept my issues since I am not sure they are accepted within professional boundaries such as teaching. When I'm fine, I'm a great teacher. Even when I'm not, I can maintain my work if nothing else. I can be fine for a long time. In fact its this episode I'm having which is most painful because when I'm well, I can pretend that in fact I'm better, it's not part of me anymore. That I don't really have either disorder. They're pretty serious mental health issues to be diagnosed with. Right now I'm feeling very unwell. I am going to the doctors tomorrow to go back on some medication to help. I know I'm strong and I'll get through this. However, I don't want to take long off from work because I don't want to jeopardize everything I've worked so hard to overcome to do a job I love as a teacher. However, I'm more than aware, no matter what people say, there is a huge stigma attached to mental illness especially in an environment where responsibility for children is paramount and educators or prinipals may well have an issue with my diagnosed issues. I also worry because I feel huge pressures right now to balance the issues I'm having with maintaining my professional image and abilty at work. I won't go into work tomorrow so I can go see a psychiatrist. I know I can only take a maximum 2 or 3 days off to get through the worst of this episode and then manage till the weekend. He'll give me drugs I've had before and they knock you out of it for a few days. Help balance the chemicals in my brain. I don't know what I'm expecting from this forum but I guess some advice or opinions regarding your perceptions of mental health issues with teaching and/or employers and if you know or have known those who have also balanced their illness with working as a teacher, to encourage me. I'm feeling dispirited. Thank you.