Thanks you are right of course it is my dream and I have to just keep going. The trouble is as a lone parent I have to keep money coming in and although I am apply for all the LSA, TA and CS jobs I see there really aren't many. I am worried if I take a job away from education it will be seen as further evidence of my 'lack of commitment'. For a similar reason I cant change cities I need to be near my family so when I will be late home from school or go in early or go on residentials my mum and sister can look after my children. Do you think that taking a job outside of education will further predjudice me?