Hi all! I'm 23, and a secondary MFL teacher. I did my NQT year last year and struggled a bit with behaviour. Towards the end of the year I clashed a little with my Head of Dept about the fact that I had been talking to my NQT mentor about problems I was having (I posted on here actually over summer) - as she took this as me complaining about her. Things have been really weird since going back; I haven't had any departmental support with behaviour at all (whereas I did last year - I used to be able to send kids out to work at the back of other people's classrooms), but my Head of Dept did make me have a meeting with the Deputy Head in charge of behaviour, who has said he will do an observation of me next week. Behaviour in my Y8 and 9 classes has been a real problem again since going back, and I can't bear the thought of having another year like last year, but this time without the support of a mentor. It's looking that way - it's no better, but now I have zero support. The thing is, sometimes I love teaching - when I have a well-behaved class I just can't believe they're paying me to do it!! But sometimes it just destroys me and I completely break down. Last year, with support with behaviour, I was fine, but now all my support has been taken away and it's a huge shock. I want to talk to my ex-mentor - she said last year that whenever I have a bad day I should go to her and talk things through - but I think I'll get in trouble with my HoD for doing so, and I think it'll make it all worse. I'm thinking about leaving teaching. The school I'm at is the best state school in the area, and behaviour is great compared to the other schools nearby, so moving schools probably wouldn't help. I'm just upset because obviously I do love teaching sometimes... I just don't know what to do and I can't talk to anyone at work about it because (a) I'm embarrassed that I need so much support and so much help and (b) I'm not allowed to talk to the person I want to talk to anyway (my ex-mentor) because my department don't like me talking to her. Any advice?