I was dreading staying in teaching after being suicidal but reduced my hours to 0.4fte over 3 days hoping that would help. Last week was my first week back and I was observed on my first teaching day of new term. I am being observed again on weds this week. My feedback from last lesson was that two of my students (from bottom set mostly sen) were unable to explain what I was teaching them. 50% of my dept left before Xmas but I am too shaken to even start job hunting. I cannot sleep and am struggling to survive due to the dread of it all. Yet I love working with the kids....and yes, just like most teachers, I am under GP and on antidepressants.