Hi there, I hope someone can offer some advice! I am a PGCE student and I should have qualified in July. I became very ill and had to stop my final teaching placement a few days in. I passed the 1st and 2nd placements with flying colours and made a great impression in both schools. Not blowing my own trumpet - but my mentor told me that my lessons where the kind of thing she would expect to see from an experienced CT. ( I know I pulled out all the stops for my obs. and I have a LOT to learn) I am trying to arrange going back into a school to complete the final placement and I find myself on an emotional rollercoaster - I can't wait to get back and at the same time I am absolutely dreading it. I knew I was becoming ill but I had no time to see a doctor. Then I had a 'funny turn' in front of the pupils, had to leave the classroom, collapsed in the toilets etc.. and had to leave. Now I keep thinking of how it must have looked and how stupid I am for letting it happen. I think I was a pretty good trainee teacher, I had excellent observations and my mentor was very pleased with me. When I left I gave all of my planning/ hand made resources to the CT and heard absolutely nothing from her after that. I keep thinking I am going to be 'blacklisted'. The though of standing infront of the children makes me so nervous. I used to be fine, really outgoing and confident. I cannot imagine being the teacher I thought I had the potential to be. I dont want to tell all of this to my mentor - as she has this impression of me - that I am 100% 'on it' ... I dont know whether I should speak to a counsellor at uni - or If I am making a mountain out of mole hill. If I go back and just get a 'satisfactory' - I am not showing progress... I cannot be the same person that I was..... how do I get my confidence back?