I haven't posted for years and years. I think I've had enough. Not of teaching but of all the issues surrounding teaching - the politics; the latest trends in training we've got to shoe-horn in; staff promoted above their ability and readiness; being 'old'; being perceived as a trouble maker because I say out loud what other colleagues are thinking but are too afraid to say; I'm tired of staff being encouraged to whistle-blow on each other so that you daren't breathe in case someone, somewhere watching you takes it the wrong way; I'm tired of really pointless meetings and even more pointless CPD; I'm tired of people treading on others to make them selves look better / feel better / do better; I'm fed up of feeling like ****, of feeling anxious, of not feeling good enough. I'm 49. When I started teaching you could retire at 50. I fell like I am just about finger tip clinging on til I can take early retirement at 55.