Hi I was wondering if anybody could offer me any advice. Before studying for my degree I worked in a Nursery and did work experience in a Primary school and when I applied for University I originally applied for a BEd in Primary Education and swapped to English with Creative Writing in the first week as I was really concerned that if teaching wasn't right for me, I would have put all my eggs in one basket by doing the degree in education and not a generic degree where I could then do a postgrad teaching course afterwards. Therefore at the time, I thought I was taking a sensible precaution. During my studies I continued to volunteer and spend a lot of my spare time working in schools and then started to lean towards the option of specializing in my subject and teaching Secondary. I therefore applied for the Secondary PGCE and managed to secure a place. Once on placement I realized that I had chosen the wrong age group and I definitely didn't feel confident enough to teach English up to A Level standard (it was an 11-18 English with Drama course). I was never told by any of my mentors that I didn't have the ability or that I was failing any aspect of the course and in actual fact they seemed very confused as to why I was withdrawing as I was excelling on placement, but I just felt that I wasn't capable of teaching up to that level even though I absolutely loved being around the kids and got such a buzz out of being in school and being a 'teacher'. Therefore after withdrawing from the course I became very down and had two very 'lost' and confused years not knowing what my vocation really was. I have now started to realize why I have felt so lost and what exactly was missing and after two years of working pointless office jobs and aimlessly bumbling around and I have decided that I need to get back in there and fulfill my passion. I am now in a situation where I am living away from home, paying bills and trying to save for a wedding and unfortunately cannot afford to go down any other route for ITT other than the GTP due to all the Government cuts to bursary funding etc for the PGCE etc. Unfortunately they state very clearly on the details for the GTP that if you have previously withdrawn from an ITT course then you will not be considered for the GTP. I therefore have no idea what I am supposed to do? I don't see what other options I have for training due to my financial situation? Can anybody suggest what I should do? I've started doing my application for the GTP anyway and I'm going to go to my old provider for the PGCE and try and get a reference from them. Any advice is very much appreciated. Sarah.