I am so scared at the moment. I have been teaching for 26 years and just can't do it anymore. I know I can teach but I can't walk into a classroom at the moment and don't think I will ever be able to again. I have been signed off for 2 months so far and am still having nightmares about being in the classroom. I know this has been coming for the past few years but I carried on as it's the only thing I've known and thought it might go away but it hasn't. I cried for help to the college and they offered me a learning assistant position at £9/hr term time only; I didn't know what it was like to be kicked when you're down but this seemed to tick the box. I explained to the VP about my issues and that I wanted to be considered for other positions in the college which I could lend my skills to but none of them were discussed with me even though I told them I can't do this anymore. I'm in FE and teach English and maths and have a great LM and team but I can't just be a teacher for the rest of my working life. I have no real ideas what to do. I am considering starting up a handyman/ gardener business but am so scared of everything at the moment. I struggle to get out of bed, dressed, eat, anything. What does a washed up 52 year old do?