I'm a regular poster who has changed my name as I dont want to be identified I really need to hear some opinions - not necessarily advice- or help from people who may have been in a similar situation. I am in my early thirties and have been married to a wonderful kind man for a few years. I have step children. I am happy in my job. For the last ten years or so I have had issues with depression and anxiety. Recently, due to a change of medication (not to do with depression) I have been feeling back to my normal self, as I felt when I was 21 and I feel confident and happy in myself. For the last few weeks I have been feeling confused and bored in my current situation. I would love to go travelling or work abroad and have been day dreaming about living alone in a flat of my own! It;s not about wanting anyone else. I love my husband but am starting to wonder whether I am in love with him. He is affectionate but the physical side of our relationship has not been very good for several years- I feel as if we are just very good friends. This did not bother me before but now it does. For the first time I am actually imagining ending it although I feel guilty for even just thinking about it. I am not going to make any rash decisions and am genuinely confused as never expected to feel like this. I feel completely torn as it's all I can think about at the moment. I don't think half term has helped as in term time I'm so busy I dont have time to think! I strongly believe in marriage but if I think about spending the next thirty years of my life like this I don't know if I can do it.... honest opinions please I don't mind people telling me to pull myself together!