Morning All, I started at a new school on Monday. I feel stupid because for the job interview, I was observed in my old school. Alarm bells should have rung out then but at the time I wanted a new challenge... Fast forward to September and I’ve inherited a class who’ve already had 4 teachers and they’re KS1. The behaviour is very challenging. I spent a lot of summer making my class room warm and inviting. The walls have been drawn on. The reading corner has been destroyed. I don’t mind planning my own PPA. I don’t even mind running a club every Friday evening which is what the expectations are at this school. What hurt the most was when the head said they hadn’t seen my children make enough progress in the 4 days we’ve been back and made out like it’s because I’d moved year groups and didn’t know what I was doing. My class are very behind and have picked up poor learning behaviours over the years which haven’t been ironed out because nobody has lasted long enough. I tried to get mathematical equipment out and it was used as missiles. The class is apparently ‘too fussy’ according to the head but on talking to other adults the behaviour has improved from what it was like last year. I have a TA who’s often out because she has other roles. She’s amazing when she’s there but is having to restrain three children in particular and take them out of the classroom to calm down often because they are a danger to themselves or others. This has happened every day so far. When she’s on her lunch break, there’s no one to do this. A behaviour plan has been put in place for these children but with little effect. We have three play times a day and I find the transition coming back in each time tough because the children take so long to settle. This also gives rise to some of the more ‘ challenging behaved’ children thinking it’s okay not to come in from the playground. The head wants to see small focussed groups in lessons but this is impossible when you’re alone. Recording of work every lesson is an expectation but when pupils don’t have the correct learning behaviour and you’re having to deal with children running out of the room, and hurting other children, the rest of the class aren’t getting on alone. They’re little and need help with reading and writing. I feel really sick which isn’t like me at all. I’m not eating or sleeping. I get to work at 7 and don’t leave until 6 trying to stick things in books so everything is prepared. I feel like I was always going to fail here. I’ve phoned my previous two head teachers and they’re shocked and saddened as I only leave schools for progression and am very resilient. I’m worried that my lesson observations are going to take a nose dive as I’ve already been marked as someone who can’t control behaviour, no matter how extreme. This will affect my reference as I’ve been warned that the head has a habit of giving poor references to people who have walked out mid year especially. I want to go on supply which will give me a chance to try out new schools first. What will supply agencies say if the head says I am a poor teacher? I am so tired already and usually at this time of year I’m enjoying seeing my children begin to succeed. I keep bursting out in floods of tears. I’ve spent all weekend planning lessons, knowing full well I’ll be spending the majority of them trying to keep my class safe instead of teaching and that the lack of recording in books will be used as a stick to beat me with. I cannot believe how overwhelmed I feel in my 8th year of teaching.