I didn't know what forum to post under. I completed NQT induction at Christmas - was really proud of myself for completing the year and passing as it was soo hard. I went to the doctor's last April as I felt so stressed and was crying all the time - he told me to keep going - had 6 not very helpful sessions of councilling. I asked to be reffered for more (as an insurance in case I needed it). Have never heard back and have just been getting on with it. This term has been really hard - I thought I had some balance in my life (I walk regularly and do yoga) but I really don't know how much longer I can do a 6 day week (planning on sundays) and work after school (and that is just to get the basic minimum done - planning, marking, SEN and CP stuff. Am sick of talking about it to family and friends- feels like the record is stuck- they try to help but nothing makes it any better. I have tried to seek out support from school - but everyone is so busy with their own stuff - when I did get to speak to someone they told me it takes 3 years to find your stride in the job and that serious prioritising only happens when you have kids (i don't). I had a good mentor during NQT year but am feeling impact of having no support since Christmas. The children still give me joy and make the job worthwhile - so that is something, but am questioning whether to stay in teaching. I only have a contract til the Summer - don't know what notice I would have to give to leave before then as it is not written in my contract Feel my health is suffering physically and mentally due to the imbalance in my life. I have shoulder and back problems that never go away and when holidays come like now - i crash with tiredness and the realisation that the rest of my life consists of nothing cos I have had no time/energy to put into the other things I enjoy (ed). Am sorry to moan...I just read someones post on how to spot a nervous breakdown and i identified with it - feel like I keep going like a trouper til something horrible happens to stop me - and that is not a goodlook! I did PGCE at 37 and so have done lots of other jobs before - I have never felt like this - thought I would come into the job with perspective and experience and would be able to handle it well. I am quite tough and resiliant - or so i thought. I do have good days where I feel it's ok and i have a handle on it but can invest 2 more years til things get easier? do they ever get easier? Thought I would be a good teacher - I worked with children before I trained and love their energy but I hate all the scrutiny/judgement/ competitiveness in the job. I have actively sought advice from colleagues during NQT year but feels like no-one tells you how to manage workload effectively (what you can afford to let slide and what is essential). Got told my lesson was inadequate from pre-ofsted this week which was the first time I had had less then satisfactory and not what i needed to hear. Anyway will make appt with a physio for my back tommorow- but need a plan b or some perspective. Sorry for ramble - any advice greatly appreciated.