Hi there, I got as far as my PGCE interviews and now I have changed my mind. Since September I have been ill with one thing after another and it has really knocked my confidence - picked up at school where I have been.I have read and heard so much about so many negative things that I don't want to do it anymore. I have been a TA for the last year and I know the good stuff but the bad stuff seems to be outweighing that. In order to try and help make a positive difference to children's lives.....I have had that same 'vision', that same dream that probably just about every teacher has had, but I am starting to think that is just a pipe dream......it's just not reality these days.....in exchange for having a stab at trying to achieve that 'vision' it seems that I would need to be prepared to: 1. Pay £9000 from my own pocket - as I have already got a Masters no student loan. 2. Live on fresh air as the government have this year reduced bursaries to £3000. 3. Go through a training course that makes incredibly high demands on people such that many fall ill with stress, give up or end up having a breakdown if not during the PGCE, before the end of the NQT year....why be so hard on people? 4. After all of that it doesn't get any better.....with inspections, unnecessary heavy admin in addition to the lesson planning, 60 hour weeks, which added to the general day to day grind of managing mixed ability classes, differentiating, managing challenging children and difficult parents is starting to sound like a nightmare of a career. Seeing people leaving in droves does not make people feel confident about going into it. 5.To top it off, I am aware that training providers seem to ask for such an incredible amount from people before accepting people on courses to train. I honestly think that expecting someone to teach a 2 hour lesson before they are trained is ridiculous - so what exactly is the training for if people are practically expected to be a teacher before they start training? 6. Add to this the bug issue - the bugs that seem to be rife in school from September onwards..... It really doesn't encourage people to want to join the profession. Ultimately I was prepared to do it until I fell ill.....that makes the rest look a hundred times harder than it is.