Nearly a month ago, I handed in my early return to work letter. I return on Monday. My reasoning was sound, I thought. Going back now, I would be working two weeks, have a week off and then have only 6 weeks back in before having 6 weeks off. I knew waiting till September to return, would mean I would spend the summer worrying. I really thught this was a good idea. I Have spent the last week crying every night. My other half will have my little darling during the day and I know she will be well taken care of, loved and looked after. But every time I think about it I cry. My LO and i have been through a lot in her first 7 momths. Nothing life threatening, just challenging. Without the support of my hubby, i'm sure i would have gone mad. And no, 7 days a week with her has shown me that i'm not capable of being a full time mum. I'm sure that this time next week, after the first day it will be ok. I just wished I did not have this knott getting bigger and bigger. I just needed to let it out. No one has to respond.