I am currently on my second and final placement. It is an 8-week placement and I am just about to go into the 6th week. The first 5 weeks have been okay, there have been both ups and downs but my first observation went well. To start with, my mentor was great and supportive, if very honest. They still seem like a nice person, but the past week I have started noticing more things. I notice that they talk badly about every person in our block even when they seem like friends, and this makes me wonder what they say about me. On Friday, I had a bad day, kids were not listening and I screwed up one of my lessons. It was a computer lesson and I did not model the task correctly and ended up screwing it up in front of the students. I overheard my mentor talk to the EA about how I had a lack of understanding of the task and I ruined the lesson for the students. While I agree, I should have done better modelling, I feel it would have been better to tell me up front and discuss how to improve. I also have a very difficult class. I have four students with severe behavioural problems. One student in particular just does not listen to any of my instructions and has major meltdowns when I try and communicate. My mentor tells me to not give up otherwise he wins and to keep trying to get through to him, but I just find this so hard when the other kids are waiting for my instruction and he is sat there with his head on the table. My mentor said that at the start of the year he was the same with them, but they have now built a relationship and he listens to them. However, he does not to me. I do not think I have enough time to build a relationship with him to respond to me, but I am at my wits end with him. I feel sick before every lesson he is in, not because of the child themselves, just because of the behaviour and the fact that I know I will get nowhere with him and it will throw the entire lesson off. My mentor also gave me all their plans for the term which I thought was great to begin with in terms of planning, however, I have now found that because I use their plans and programs, if I do not do it exactly how they have in the past, I do not do well. I really wish I could plan my own activities and lessons. I am having issues with my writing component. I was given a template by my mentor and told to teach the students this specific writing style. I have never taught it before and am being expected to follow the way she teaches things, but I am struggling and wish I could break down the task more and use my own style My last placement went so well and I enjoyed every day there and received an excellent assessment. This one is the opposite. I am now dreading going in tomorrow and I guess I am just looking for words of encouragement and for anyone who has been here before. I want to quite so badly, but I only have 3 weeks left I feel I should stick it out. I so hope I pass. I don't know what I will do if I fail after all this work.