So I have been doing a head of subject role for free in the absence of the person on and off for years. No word on him until Suddenly I see the role advertised. Externally. No one thought to tell me he had resigned and that they are recruiting. I didn’t expect to be offered the job or anything like that however to find out from a job advert has really put the nail in the coffin for me in terms of how valued I am (toxic school). Colleagues asking me if I’m going to apply and I feel like not as it’s obvious how little I am thought of that they didn’t even tell us. But my dilemma now is I am applying for posts elsewhere and I don’t want places to then wonder why I am when this job is going at my school. From the outside my school is seen as ‘good’ and at interviews previously I’ve been asked repeatedly why would you want to leave somewhere so ‘lovely’. Part of me thinks at least if i don’t apply I can’t be given some confidence knocking reason why I’m not good enough to be paid for the job I do for free and at least that was I maintain some integrity! But then how do I discuss this in interviews?