Happyflower, thanks for that! I'm determined to recover from it, but its a 50-50 battle at the moment. I'm trying to eat more, but still don't want to gain weight! It's awful the way it 'grips' you - so tight - yet logic tells you it's so wrong too! I'm much more frustrated now (at 35) about it than I was as a teenager, because I can see the damage I'm doing - but it still doesn't allow me to stop it!