I feel sad. Here's why. I'm three years into the profession. I moved away from five years of third sector work because of horrendous bullying from co-workers. Three years in one school, I do my best to keep my head down, contribute as much as possible, and above all, focus on the students. I get caught in a web of horrendous politics. By trying to keep my head down and keep out of it I am accused of being "Secretive" and "impersonal." One member of staff goes so far as to say I tell "tall stories." I don't remember telling anyone any stories, about anything. My life outside of school is my own. Am I not supposed to have a life? A friend has been forced to resign half way through his NQT year. Why? A child claimed to have burnt her hand in a science lesson - she didn't. There's no evidence of any injury to her, or parental complaint. The school still asks the teacher to leave. Every time I open the paper I feel like I see a news story about "teacher sues school for xyz" or "teacher accused of rape and abuse tries to get self reinstated unsuccessfully" or "parents make complaint about teaching..." Is there some kind of PR coming from the DofE to counteract the truthful media coverage on workload, pay and strikes? Are we being demonised by the media, as well as students, parents, leadership? Are leaders being pressured to silence teachers who are actually in desperate need of support? I read one story about teachers suffering with PTSD - Having regularly woken up having nightmares about work, my initial reaction: yeah. TeachFirst - A wonderful principle, a hideous, risky, career squashing practice. There are people leading our schools who have never been teachers. No-one I know seems to understand how tired you are when you teach all day, but how lost you are when you stop teaching. So I feel sad. Is being left on the front line in such a way true of any other profession? Is being mistreated, misjudged, undermined, overloaded, attacked and strung up just something you have to lump in day to day work? Having been a "top-graduate," and committed teacher, I now feel I never, ever want to go back into a school, no matter how much I liked it. I feel like my life is worth nothing.