Sorry for the SUPER long post. Im searching for solidarity whilst torturing myself for being off with WRS. Background: I moved from secondary to primary in Jan. This year I’m heavily pregnant. At a routine check up I mentioned my working hours & how I felt- I got signed off with WRS unexpectedly being told I was suffering severe reactions to stress/panic attacks (struggling to breathe, pins & needles, night terrors, chest pains, inability to focus on any tv/books etc). I’ve always taken pride in my efficiency. I rarely had to take work home in the past, didn’t work late apart from obvious times of year & I had extra roles/responsibilities. This is the least amount of responsibility I’ve had in 7 years but I’ve never worked harder. I do 7.30-5pm easy without breaks. I’ve had a slapped wrist from the head for being caught leaving before 5 or ‘early’ despite there being nothing in my contract about that. They don’t force you to work through break but with 120 books to mark daily (minimum 60 with eng/maths), prep/planning, twilight meetings & data/extra requests- everyone does it. It’s very lonely. Also it’s clearly expected. I was told that when I come back I could miss any twilight meetings addressing next year (when I’m on maternity) but may want to come if I ‘got a set of books done at lunch’. We have to do intervention groups in every assembly slot so I’ve lost that 20mins. Our PPA is on 1 afternoon but by the time we’re done meeting with the team, we get maybe 1.5hrs. I have 28 kids (not as bad as the 35 last year) mixed ability but no TA (common I know). Maths lessons with the disparity of ability are something I can’t even explain & I was waiting to be observed in it with 24hrs notice. I was waking up soaked in sweat having nightmares about it. I couldn’t handle being told it wasn’t good enough. I could not have given more of myself. I told school I’d come back after half term (to 2 immediate parent eves no less) but my GP laughed at my suggestion & kept me off again. I was signed off 15 days in total. I suggested a phased return of a week of morns before full time (my GP didn’t want me back at all) but I was told all or nothing is better for the kids. What about me & my baby? So now I’m using my last 2 weeks of paid sick leave (GPs advice) & will have to return full whack at the end of it. Daunting to say the least. I feel unbearably guilty for my team who are suffering & trying to chip in. They’re stressed too & didnt get signed off. When did teaching get like this? Who the hell are the superheroes who do this & don’t hate their lives?! And when will the anxiety end. I don’t feel like myself anymore.