So I have 10 working weeks of my second placement of ITT left. I can make it. BUT I honestly don’t know if I can put myself or my family through another year like this. I don’t want to be one of the disappearing shortage subject bursary trainees but I have no life and I’m stressed, it’s making me ill and I hate it. I’m late 30’s, I have two small kids and I gave up a long and successful career to do this, I wanted it so much to work. So is the NQT year as bad, worse, better? I am broken and sad and I honestly don’t know what to do. Do I push on get a job and hope for the best or give it up as a bad job, get the qualification, cut my losses and return to normality.