So I'm in a bit of a pickle. I should start out by saying that I am not happy in my current role. To sum things up in as short a way as possible, my current school has awful behaviour and they have brought in a whole host of new strategies for teaching/learning which do not work. Class teachers are miserable as they are not taken seriously or trusted, support staff are on the brink because they are treated badly and SLT live in a bubble where they have no idea what is actually going on and work at cross purposes to one another. Every instinct in me says I need to get out. Two teachers have already left this year and another two have handed in their notice for Easter. I have been trying since September to just push myself on and try to get through to the summer break. My husband and I are trying to start our own family and the clock is now ticking for me on the age front. Together with the fact that I have medical issues that could potentially mess up falling pregnant, plus the fact that I had an early miscarriage last month, falling pregnant is not something I really want to put off. Yesterday I was casually looking at job websites and came across a role asking for a specialist for a provision attached to a mainstream school. I spoke to the agency just now and they were keen to put me forward for the job. If you had asked me 9 years ago as an NQT where I wanted to end up in my career, that sort of role is it. I have the qualifications and feel confident I could do the job well. Roles like this do not come along often and I feel like it would be silly not to try for it. I am now in a muddle because I cannot do all of the above. I feel that my current role is a ticking time bomb for my mental health, but leaving for a new job is going to push back starting my own family another year at least. I can't very well start a new job and then ask for maternity. Having children is the top priority - like I said, I'm not getting any younger. As you can see, I am in a right old pickle and feel like I can't see the wood for the trees now. Outsider perspective would be welcome.