Hello everyone, long time reader first time poster. I'm a male just about to start my final placement on my PGCE course, and recently came out of my mainstream second placement with a GOOD rating and was excited to start my final placement at my special needs host school. Unfortunately, in the few weeks before starting my upcoming final placement, my confidence has well and truly been destroyed and I'm so anxious and stressed about starting my final placement I'm considering deferring my placement until September just to complete it at a different school. I completed my first placement at my host school, and although I passed this placement, I realised that I hadn't experienced the best training and mentorship here. I'd been passed around by 3 members of staff to be my mentor, which just made me feel like a burden, however I kept my head down and worked hard to pass this 4 week placement. In hindsight, I have realised that the 5 minute weekly meeting I received wasn't really sufficient to support my learning in my first placement and should have been a red flag. Fast forward to my second placement, I was at a school with a mentor and class teacher who supported me and gave me advice and time to support my professional growth, and the growth I experienced at this school was phenomenal and I had a really excellent time there. Going back to the host school, I found out that I had been moved into a different class for my upcoming placement. I didn't receive a reason for this which started to knock my confidence (Was I not good enough for the first class? Did the staff not like me in my first class? etc). Upon asking my new class teacher if he was my new mentor, he said 'I don't know, I hope not though because I have an NQT to mentor and that wouldn't be fair on him and you'. Fast forward a few experience days and I found out that he is my mentor, alongside the teacher in the 'other room' who gave me the 5 minute weekly meetings. As I had been attending school visits and interviews for September positions, I only had 4.5 days in this new class observing the individual routines, the children's behaviours and the different grouping for Maths and English lessons. This is a special needs school, so I had been observing routines, reward charts, behaviours etc during these 4.5 days. (Each Tuesday afternoon, 80% of the class would also go swimming, leaving me able to interact with 3 pupils in these afternoons). On my final day before the Easter break, he asked me to come in for an 8AM meeting to discuss his concerns for my upcoming placement. His first concern was that he wasn't sure if I'm "committed to teaching his class" as I hadn't made enough connections with his special needs pupils and they don't recognise me in the teacher role yet. Although I had been making notes and completing observation sheets (as part of my course!) during these days, he never introduced me to the class as an upcoming teacher, and I only had limited chances to teach and lead select groups as part of his lessons. His second concern hit me hard, and he mentioned that 'my class is a really difficult class, and I'm concerned that you're not going to be able to keep up the staff morale needed to make my class run effectively." This did upset me, as all I could think of was "Do they not like me in this class?" (especially because I had no reason to suspect any of this 4.5 days into visiting) and just made me feel like I was a burden in this class and this school again. His third concern was that I hadn't taught enough non-core subjects in my prior placements, and was concerned I wouldn't be able to plan and deliver these lessons. Again, with both prior placements concentrating on core subjects, I felt it was a little unfair to say this, I am here to learn to teach ALL subjects as a student. He finished off our meeting by asking me 'I need you to think hard now, as this is your final chance, and think about if this is the right placement for you'. By the end of the meeting, any confidence and excitement that had fostered during my second placement had been crumbled, and I had to write down all of my feelings or I would have just started crying 5 minutes before the pupils came into the school. I'm so concerned and anxious about having my placement in this school with this mentor, as I no longer feel welcome in this school and believe that my mentor might have some issues with me, as I felt like a lot of these concerns where perhaps overally harsh considering I had spent 4.5 days in a brand new special needs class. After completing two placements with no cause for concerns and good reviews/observations, I'm just so confused as to why this is happening before my final placement. I am struggling with the idea of being in this school for 10 weeks and having a mentor that doesn't seem supportive and might possibly have some issues with me, which may affect my observation results, but most importantly my mental well-being. I am desperate for any advice, and how I should progress. I'd love to complete my final placement now rather than defer it, however I'm just most concerned about what will happen to my mental well-being during the next 10 weeks. Thank you for reading this far if you made it down here, I appreciate any advice you can throw my way regarding the next few weeks of my life.