Hello all, I lost 4 significant people when I was 7, all within a year. My Grandad, my Grandma, my Aunty and best friend. This was 14 years ago, I'm now 21 and although I got over my grandparent's death many years ago, the other two are much trickier. My grandparents were old, it made sense that they died. We are glad my Grandma died as she was heartbroken without Grandad but my Aunty was mid thirties with two children and Matthew was the same age as me, he died before he turned 7. In the last few days, I have felt feelings of grief and loss over Aunty Penny and Matthew re-surface and I don't know what to do. I am a Chritian and am feeling suddenly very angry at God. How is it fair or part of some grand plan that a 6 year old should die and that two children should be left without their mother? Where was the God that I know of love and compassion and healing when they were dying in hospital? When I was 7, I accepted the situation with an amount of maturity that I wish I was capable of now, I was never angry or questioning, they died, that was the way it was. But now I can't help asking why they had to die. Matthew was 6 and if he had lived would be going through all the milestones I am but he isn't here to share. After Aunty Penny died, our family got torn apart and a lot of pain and hurt has resulted through the actions of certain members of the family. I don't think I have been able to grieve them properly. Possibly due to the speed at which we lost all these people, I didn't have time to get over the first death before the next came along. I don't really know why I'm writing this on the TES forum but I felt I had to talk about with someone, I have tried my Mum but it resulted in a bit of an arguement and now I have shut myself in my bedroom. Has anyone else had a similar experience? Can any of you understand what I am currently going through? Thank you for reading if you have, I am not looking for answers as I know I will never find them but an understadning ear is all I need.