Hi all, I have been off ill with depression for a few months now caused by an underlying physical medical condition. However, my medical condiiton is now being treated and I am feeling better andI have manged to get a new job starting in September. I was due to go back to my current job this week but on my first day back I had a meeting with the Head who has given me 'garden leave' - in other words they are paying me full pay but asking me not to work the rest of my notice period. I just feel like i'm not good enough and that i've failed them and that's why they have let me go. It makes sense that they have done this as it wouldn't make much sense to go back for such a short space of time but part of me feels really rejected. I feel that being ill has really let them down and that they hate me now. I feel sad because I have been pushed out the back door without the chance to say goodbye to my students or colleagues. Almost like I was a mistake that needed to be swept under the rug. I'm not sure why i'm writing this other than to get my worries out there. Please don't reply with anything nasty as I can't cope with it right now! Thanks for letting me moan!