I have been off with depression for over a year now and slowly have to consider re-entering the classroom. During the last year before I called in sick, I worked at a vocational school where behaviour was very poor. Unfortunately, my colleagues stuck their heads in the sand, which meant I was the only one addressing behaviour, which caused the children to rebel against me. Following the school rules seemed to make things worse. I observed colleagues to find out what they did differently, but soon found out that they allowed poor behaviour. (Eating/drinking in class, phones out, rude behaviour, applying makeup/spraying deodorant around the room etc.) I ended up leaving the school and vowed to leave teaching altogether. After a year of counseling, I have decided to go back into the classroom. My counselor has advised me to only teach in certain schools, preferably no lower sets. He's convinced me it's not my fault. (After a few years of teaching supply in the UK and a year of struggling with behaviour in my own country I was pretty sure I was to blame.) Also, I'm determined to only work at schools with a supportive SLT to back me up. However, I am still very nervous about re-entering the classroom. I know I could get a job today, if I wanted to, but the thought of having to face the children and not being able to deal with them scares me. I know I am a good teacher, but the last couple of years have really damaged my confidence. How can I prepare myself for the first step back into the classroom? In my country, there's often no clear behaviour policy, so I'll have to rely on my own methods.