Is anyone else feeling they have lost their way? As English teachers we are responsible (as unpaid examiners) for 60% of the GCSE ... Assessing against bands that we cannot accurately or with confidence correlate to grades ... Being required to track/report half-termly current working grades (no one seems interested in the concept of notional) to SLT, parents and pupils, which we are then held to. when we have no idea where the grade boundaries lie (especially as the board reserves the right to move them at any time without explanation) ... Asked by the board to give estimated grades for each unit which we do in good faith but without any assurance that we are right because no one will tell us where the grade boundaries are/will be... Trawling through eaqa individual performance data to analyse what went wrong and what might merit a re- mark ... Angsting (sic) whether candidates were entered for the right tier ... whether a candidate's CA mark should have been adjusted down at moderation ( some were put up/down/unchanged by us - as a centre as we spent hours and hours moderating throughout the two years - yet not one mark was changed by the external moderator ... were we really so accurate? Would we have been equally accurate if we'd just sent them in with a cursory glance ..?) I feel I have manned the GCSE barricades for long enough. I championed 100% coursework, and had more confidence in my judgement (with 100% responsibility) than than I do now! Currently receiving e-mails from anxious/angry parents ... who want to hold us to our word because we said on so many occasions (reports/parents' eves/practice papers) that their daughter was a C grade ( not a strong one, but when unable to report a C/D option opted for C (thus satisfying candidate target grades/whole school E+M target) parental aspirations/expectations ... Because, after all, as assessors of 60% of the exam the school. parents. pupils expect us as the professional to know ( and as HOD the last word that's heard is mine) ... Not really sure where I am going with this except to say I feel this huge sense of injustice and impotence and a loss of faith. After 30 years I have lost my faith and self-belief. Business as usual in Sept?