As a bit if background: I'm a secondary NQT who was rated outstanding at the end of my PGCE. I had a difficult first placement with a bullying mentor but then really enjoyed and thrived in my second one. I started this year prepared for it to be tough, but feeling excited and positive. The first half term was stressful but enjoyable and the environment at the school is supportive and positive. However I was observed towards the end of the half term and it didn't go well: I tried some creative activities that didn't work, recognised this and spoke to my mentor about what went wrong and how to improve. Now, since coming back after half term my mentor has scheduled extra observations with a member of SLT and extra meetings to check my lesson planning. I am also struggling with classroom management as there is a lack of any real behaviour policy. I don't think I am being treated unfairly and I appreciate the school is trying to provide extra support. However for the past week i have felt extremely stressed and anxious (I have suffered with anxiety before) and cried and felt sick on the way to work and really struggled to stay motivated. I am up to date with planning for next week and I'm not particularly behind on anything important but I feel very overwhelmed by the amount of work I have to do (I am usually at school around 7.30am until 6pm and have to work a day on the weekend too) and the expectations the school have of me, and from reading about other teachers' experiences, I can't see that this is a sustainable career for me. This evening I feel like I would rather do literally anything than go into work tomorrow. I tried to take most of the weekend off but I still feel tearful, sick and I have lost my appetite. But I also feel silly for feeling this way as I know many teachers who work more than me and I know the school are trying to help me. I don't have a specific question but I suppose I'm seeking general advice or to talk to people in the same boat. I want to at least finish the year but I'm not sure if i can if I continue to feel like this.