Hi, I really just need to sound off a bit. Life has been pretty rough for the last 9 months and it just feels like it is all catching up on me. I am a NQT and started by NQT year in September. Two weeks before I started my Dad died very suddenly. I have managed to cope ok but it is all still pretty raw. In March my mum had a 10 week stay in hospital with severe depression and liver failure. She went from being ok to now having to walk with a zimmer frame and have help feeding herself and basic hygiene. I now feel like I have lost both my parents in some ways. I only work part-time and supply has been worse than useless so I am now battling with increasing debts and just feel like I am drowning. My partner is doing his best but soon I would have used his savings as well. In September I have nanaged to secure another part-time job which will make me up to full -time but that seems a long time away. To top it all of I think my HT is starting to loose faith in me. I do all of the planning for school including the days he teaches and recently I have forgotten to leave worksheets etc and it is really annoying him. I know he thinks I am the worlds most unorganised person and he is right. I am starting to think I am not right for teaching. I love the kids, they seem to be learning and enjoy my lessons but I don't think it is enough for my HT. More importantly it's not enough for me. I feel like such a disappointment - in work, life and everything!