Just wanting to vent really... actually that's not entirely true, I also want someone to talk to - some company - but not necessarily sympathy or anything like it. I feel so down and depressed right now. It's a combination of things. I feel like I am losing touch with friends, I have no work/life balance, I'm not enjoying my job, I feel unable to make new friends so spend a lot of time alone. I don't really know what I want to achieve from this post except that I want someone to say they understand I suppose. It comes to something when the only place you feel you can seek company is in an internet forum. I visited my Aunt earlier hoping to chat to her about how I feel but found myself unable to, instead listening to her life and what she'd been up to, where she was going on holiday, what friends she'd seen. I felt unable to say 'I don't feel I have any friends and those I do have I no longer see and I envy.' That's a terrible thing to say, I know but it is true. I should probably say now for those who don't know my posts from personal that I have a history of depression so I am not sure if this is 'just another episode' or something more.