I'm starting back at my placement school tomorrow and I feel absolutely awful. After having some doubts at first, I loved my first few weeks at uni and I passed my first two assignments and have had really good feedback. The staff at my placement school are also really nice and welcoming and have been really helpful. Despite all of the above, I feel constantly upset and down. This weekend I have cried myself to sleep and I keep feeling 'okay' but then bursting into tears again. Part of me is enjoying the course, but part of me feels like teaching still isn't me. I'm doing MFL and my main language is German with v little French. My placement school focuses on more vocational routes at KS4 and it's kind of opened my eyes to the idea that MFL isn't really so useful for some pupils, which sounds ridiculous, like I'm losing heart in my own subject. It doesn't help that we have been told that MFL is no longer a shortage subject and that there are far too many teachers for positions. That along with the fact many schools are dropping German in favour of Spanish makes me panic too. I spoke to my tutor and she said that everything I have done so far has been really good, we did a micro teaching task and she said it was excellent, but I still don't want to be a teacher. Don't get me wrong, I love being in front of a class of kids teaching them, but I generally feel unwell. I know it's hard work, but I don't think I should be crying myself to sleep and crying every few minutes when I think about it. It reminds me of being picked on at school and dreading going in when I knew my friends would be on holiday, it's like that feeling but worse. I really don't know what to do or who I can turn to.