Sorry for the long post. I started a new post in September (my first permanent one) and was initially really excited. I now feel really low, as if all the confidence I built in my teaching last year- I thought I was a good teacher and received some very kind praise from my colleagues and SLT there, only having to leave because there was no room at the inn so to speak- has been completely wiped out and then some. I am absolutely dreading Monday and have cried more times in this last half term than in my collective previous years teaching. I work in a SEN/behavioural needs school and my class has several children whom are extremely aggressive- my class team and I have all been hit and kicked many times since September. I have found as well that staff can be quite gossipy- things said/done in passing can be around our small school in minutes- and there can be some quite snide comments at times. I have found one member of SLT to be quite patronising (it was a relief when one of my class team said this first as I thought I was being over sensitive) which also knocks me, they speak to me as if I'm one of the children. Advice is contradictory so if I do one thing advised by one member of staff, it is a fairly safe bet I'll be criticised by another (or, more than once, the same member of staff) for doing that same thing. At times, this is done in front of the children, to me and the TAs in the class which I feel undermines all of us. I don't mind being given feedback, value it highly if I feel it is with the genuine intent to help me improve, I don't like being made to feel 'told off' in front of the children, and I don't like seeing it done to the other adults in class whom I know are doing their very best. I know they have been very upset and low as well. There are several other things upsetting me but I don't want to put them here for fear I have gone too much into detail already. This is not so much an ask for advice as a rant in an attempt to get some things off my chest. I am seriously considering leaving teaching as all the little things that used to give me a normal level of teacher stress now feel amplified, and far outweigh the things I normally love about the job. In truth, I have come to feel rather useless at it no matter how hard I work, and worry I have been put off of it permanently.