Sorry but I need to vent. I don't feel cut out for the Foundation Stage any more. The new "choose what you want to do and don't make them do anything" philosophy to me is not beneficial to every child. If x wants to play on bikes all day then we just let them? I'm ashamed to say it's made me lazy in my teaching. We used to group the children, they would have a certain amount of free choice but there would also be certain activities each group would have to do each day, every child covered the objectives in a week and you knew where every child was up to. Now I write reports and may aswell leave certain sections bank as x has never picked up a paintbrush all year and would never choose to do so. But instead I write some arbitrary comment because I feel I should but it means nothing. I agree with learning through play but I also agree with directed activities as well. A balance. I find it very hard on parents evening when asked about writing development not to say "well actually he's done no writing all year because it's not something he choses to do, when I shoved a clipboard in his face in the construction area he did a quick scribble to shut me up then carried on building his ship, that's the extent of his writing experience". Some children are fine with this style but most are not. I hate parents evenings because I know they're thinking "well what the hell do you do with them all day?" and I'm trying to pretend that it's all really beneficial to be working in this style and they're really coming on, I feel like they're thinking I'm a dreadful teacher and I'm starting to feel that way too. I'm sorry to go on, have not posted on here for years but I am just feeling really down about this. I used to be a good teacher, now I just watch children play all day. And I actually feel I know less about them despite thousands of photos and post it notes than I used to do when I had groups whom I taught and assessed on my terms not theirs. Right, rant over. Apologies once again.