I have been awake most of the night after an almighty row with my mum last night. Today I am due to be travelling back to home town for 2 days to catch up with friends and sort a couple of bits out. Mum went mad at me because I hadn't factored in visiting every member of my family. I'll be honest, my family (other than a couple of close members - mum included) aren't that important to me. They probably sounds really mean but it is the way it is. We've never been close and I barely see them. You couldn't put my family in a room and have a great time like some families do, it would just be a painful experience. Don't get me wrong, I think it is great when families are close, and when I have children I want nothing more than for us all to be close, but mine just isn't. I'm not bothered that it isn't, I don't feel I have missed out. Mum is annoyed because it is embarrassing for her if I don't visit (as opposed to my cousins who see them because it is easy access to money!). Sorry just fancied a rant, instead of my nice two relaxing days catching up with friends I will be chasing here, there and everywhere and will return home exhausted in time for Christmas. I'm sure I'm not alone in feeling like this, but my mum has made me feel like the most selfish person in the world who doesn't give a damn about anyone other than myself.