I really really don't want to go back to school next week . As a department we have been really under the microscope for poor results compared to the rest of the school. As a result my appraisal target was that Value Added for my GCSE group had to be positive or at least 0. The results were mixed. I'd say except 7 kids, everyone got the results I thought they *deserved*, which as unfortunately the results they deserved did not corralate entirely with the work of fiction that is their target grades, so on paper - this looks bad. very bad. Yet most of the group worked their little socks off the whole year. After analysing the results, of the 6 that did v. badly, 2 were lazy so no surprises. 2 absolutely tanked the reading and listening papers (can only assume exam nerves as they were doing ok in all the practise papers) and 3 fell foul of the exam boarding raising the grade boundaries for writing and speaking, so their C's became D's, dragging their averages down. However from last years experience I know the Head doesn't give a flying fig about grade boundary changes or exam nerves or lazyness. Consequently, my value added is very much in the red, which means no pay rise for me. I'm only on M2 as it is, so I just about stay afloat financially, but it is very tight some months. I just keep thinking about how hard I worked last year, and how much harder I am going to have to work this year, (It is going to be constant scruitiny) with no financial reward, no acknowledgement from above of the goodstuff, and in the winter needing to walkaround the house in 7 layers because I can't afford to run the heating for very long, because if I work out my hourly salary I think I might just cry. That and my year 10 group for this year contains some not very nice kids, who have been given targets that are impossible. Just wondering if there is anyone else out there in my position?