I’m trying to figure out if I’m incompetent, unlucky or ill suited to teaching! I’m in my late twenties; I qualified as a primary school teacher in 2009 and have had a succession of supply and temporary jobs since then. I have experience in a variety of schools from the inner-city school where the children (my class were Year 2 but the same applied to most of the school) threw chairs, swore at staff, and had fights whenever they felt like. To an ‘Outstanding’ school where the workload was impossible and the pressure to achieve ‘progression’ according to data and spreadsheets intense. I’m struggling to know what to do next, I know I could, maybe should, apply for teaching jobs for September. If I do then this will be my fourth successive application cycle. I just feel really tired. I didn’t enjoy the uncertainty of day-to-day supply and I already feel anxious when I think about starting out in a new school yet again; having to get to grips with the ‘who’ and ‘how’ and the workload and the knowledge that in all likelihood it would be another temporary contract. I’m not afraid of hard work but I just feel so tired of it all. There’s no guarantee I’ll find a post as the area I live in is saturated with unemployed NQTs (up to 500 applications per post often quoted) and I’ve already tried moving areas (ended up sharing a flat with an IV drug user and working in aforementioned inner-city school) which has put me off! I’m just feeling a bit sorry for myself, I know that if I’d got a permanent post and been able to stick with it I’d be three years in, used to the school and how it works and probably finding the workload a lot easier. I’ve tried to look on the positive side and think about how lucky I am, especially as the recession has been so difficult for so many people. I’ve spent the last few years living with family, which has enabled me to continue to pursue teaching, rather than having to take whatever job I could get but I feel I’ve put my career ahead of everything else, like making friends, hobbies etc. and now it’s come to nothing and I don’t know what to do. I suppose I just wanted to write down how I'm feeling and see if anyone has any advice/ suggestions of what you would do if you were me.