Feeling so low and need some advice. In sept I started a new job. My colleagues are lovely but management is **** and behaviour poor. I was feeling great anxiety about going into work before Christmas, and worrying about how I was going to get through to the end of the year. My mum suffers from depression and over Christmas she has relapsed and become very unwell again. Yesterday (second day back) I had a massive meltdown at school, couldn't stop crying and shaking and was sent home. O visited mum and came back feeling quite positive. However this morning I am feeling really anxious and breathless again. Really getting panicky at the idea of standing in front of a class but don't want to let my school down, get a bad reputation (as I only started in sept) or worry my mum more. I feel as though she needs me to be ok, but I am not ok and can't seem to make myself ok. Please help.