I don't want to be a teacher anymore. A year and a half in and I regret my decision. I don't hate teaching specifically, I resent the fact that it is my life and not my job. I love children and I hate the planning, marking, assessment, paperwork and everything else. I am sure this is the case with nearly every teacher but they seem to not be as desperately miserable as me. I am truly unhappy. I don't want to be doing this anymore, I don't sleep well, I cry all the time, I spend evenings and weekends doing work or if I don't I spend it moaning about the work I have to do and/or feeling guily about not doing it!! This is not the life I want. I am ashamed and embarassed to say I can't cope with it. I know people around me will think it's a waste of a qualification and I don't know what else I could do but I just know this cannot be my life for the next 40 years. I am currently in a school in special measures and I know this adds pressure but it's not like my NQT year was a walk in the park! I have had numerous observations (all mixed reviews!) and 'classroom visits' and book/planning scrutiny and everything else, and as much as the pretty leaflets come through the door explaining my rights about what pressures can and cannot be put upon me, we all know in the real world its not as easy as that. A young RQT joining a school in special measures is unlikely to ruffle feathers. I cannot just leave and do something else as I am the 'bread-winner' in our house at the moment. Without my salary we wouldn't be able to afford this house. If my husband gets a better job (which he is trying to do!) then I would happily change but until then I am just wishing my life away. I think I would be much happier as a TA. People say this would be a waste and I would be over-qualified etc. but I would still get to work with and help the children, plus enjoy more creative jobs rather than dull paperwork!! Not to mention come home to my family and a clear mind. I haven't met anyone that feels like me at all in my current or previous school.... please tell me there is another like minded Primary RQT out there somewhere!? Any advice on what I can do, career options etc would be appreciated.