Hi all, I never thought I'd be one to post something like this on a forum, but here I am. I have finished my second term as a Secondary NQT (maternity cover), and embarking on final term. I have been having regular panic attacks almost every morning since January. I have been crying at work, locking myself in cupboards at break times for a bit of peace and quiet (there's no staff room), and falling asleep as soon as I get home during the week with no energy to even make dinner (my poor husband has been a star). I am physically, emotionally and mentally exhausted. I feel empty and numb, and cannot face going in to work. Term only started yesterday but here I am again, taking a day off due to uncontrollable sobbing. When I go in to school, I want to escape it so badly with every inch of my being. This is not fair to the kids. My job is a maternity cover post, and she has now come back to work. The headmaster has told me I can stay to complete my NQT but if I find a job that starts immediately then he can afford to let me go. My family thinks I should suck it up for the final term as I would regret not completing my NQT year. I told my line manager about my severe anxiety and depression yesterday and he agreed that I would regret it. I'm in a horrible cycle of being damned if I leave and damned if I don't. I have no idea what I will do if I leave. All I know is that this job is making me seriously ill. I have never felt so low, ashamed and helpless. If you have been in a similar situation, how did you get past it??