Hi, I started my secondary PGCE in September 2011. To be honest it was never something I wanted to do, after I graduated I spent some time abroad - the bursary was the main factor. Due to significant life events I was diagnosed with depression in November. I have been seeking counselling and been taking medication since then. My first placement school was fantastic - I actually thought teaching might have been for me! (Apart from all the pointless paperwork/jumping through hoops). However my second placement (a notoriously difficult placement at our University) has been a complete downer. I now realise that teaching is not for me (I have a job abroad starting in September - it relies on me completing the PGCE, so I can't quit). I find the endless reams of paperwork and planning tedious and pointless. I think Learning Objectives are a waste of time and AFL is a farce. As you can see, I'm not in good spirits - my mentor at my school and the staff are very negative and pessimistic. I have not heard the words 'Q Standard' been muttered at all. My mentor even told me that it is impossible for a student teacher to be more than satisfactory. The head of department is just waiting to retire and has no enthusiasm at all. This isn't personal, it's how it is. Anyway, I have told my university tutor about my condition. He was very unsympathetic and didn't even acknowledge my special circumstances form, which was sent by my GP as she was concerned. Ironically I'm doing very well on the PGCE, getting 70% in my assignments and delivering good lessons, but I just can't cope with the negativity and the constant put downs. I try to be creative with lessons and come up with new exciting ideas, but I am constantly told that they are a waste of time. The department in the school is also the worst in the school - 70% of students are below target. I now only have 22 days left teaching however I'm not sure much more I can take. The Easter holidays have been a nice break but now I dread going back... I just want to crawl into my bed and sleep until it's over! Are there any rules out there about how many days I can miss? I've missed 2 due to a throat infection over the whole placement. I don't feel like I can take much more. This school makes me hate teaching, something I never thought I'd say.