Hello, I wouldn't normally write about personal things on a forum, but I don't know what to do. I have been feeling down for a long, long time. I felt stressed and down at my last school, so I left for a new start. Felt a bit better over the holidays and have just started a new job. The new job has straight away made me feel absolutely awful. I have been crying all weekend telling my partner I want to run away, or worse... I keep crying, shaking and literally pulling my hair out. I don't see any hope and I feel so down. I just want to lie down and sleep forever and I keep feeling like I can't breath and panicking. I feel completely overwhelmed. I don't know what to do. I have only just started so I don't want to mess them around but I think I never should have. I am afraid to leave or get signed off because I have rent and bills and a long time before I can get out of my tenancy. I don't want to let everyone down. I just can't cope with this. I have so much work to do for tomorrow and I can't get on with it because I can't breath. I just want to disappear. What should I do?