Dear theo, First of all I'm typing this on my phone so apologies for any errors. I'm starting to apply for jobs after four years in my current school. I always came out satisfactory in formal lesson observations because my nerves got the better of me. I did a lot of work on this and in Ofsted in November I got Good which I felt was much more of a reflection of me. Six weeks ago I was burgled and it's had a rather detrimental effect on many parts of my life, infusing my teaching-mainly due to not sleeping. I am seeing a counsellor about it but didn't tell my head teacher as I felt it is a personal issue and she won't want an excuse. As I'm in y6 she has been coming in to both classes and a couple weeks ago she said she was concerned as the couple of lessons she sat in on were inadequate as I didn't model them - I had misinterpreted my idea of revision and I put my hands up as I thought that revision should be to See what they already know but because I have a weak class se said I should Still be modelling and not giving them level five stuff. She asked me to hand in my plans fr the last couple weeks and both times she said she was much happier with the pitch of the lessons and when she asked how I planned to model my lesson tomorrow I was able to show her and she was happy with it. I'm taking everything on that she said as I want her to see its a blip and not my standard practice-which has never been the case before, but I dot want to make excuses for it as bottom line she is checking I'm doing my job. The literacy coordinator has been coming in now to start helping our kids with literacy stuff too and she said informally 'yeah that was a good lesson and they produced some good work'. Anyway, now I'm terrified she can give me a bad reference and ruin my chances of being able to relocate to be closer to my family which I need to do now as the house I live in frightens me after what happened. I'm meeting with her Tuesday morning as my deputy knows I'm starting to look around and told the head with my permission and I'm just giving the head the details of why I'm looking elsewhere and explaining its nothing personal to the school. Is there a way I can say 'i hope I can get your support if I find a new school' and 'i want to leave here on good terms'-have I now ruined things and any chances to move on? I really need some advice as its doing my head in and making me a bit of a nervous wreck because if I can't get a reasonable reference from her then I'll be stuffed.