I started my GTP in September and unfortunately suffered a very close bereavement a week into the course resulting in me having to have three weeks off work (due to stress and health issues). Alongside this I was just recovering from a serious health issue in the summer for which I have to attend weekly hospital appointments (once a week during the school week) for treatment to prevent my illness from re developing. The treatment sometimes causes a reaction and as a result I had to have a few days off work once returning after the bereavement as I was kept in hospital under observation. The school who have taken me on as a student knew I would be attending hospital on a weekly basis prior to the course and I also have a doctors letter stating I am fit to work (the treatment being in place to prevent illness). However, my trainee school and especially my mentor have not taken to this very well at all (which I can understand) as I have missed a lot of the first term. However, as I have explained losing an immediate family member was not something I have caused and I can only apologise for circumstances out of my control. My mentor however has become very hostile towards me and difficult to work with - stating they are completely at loss with the training as we have missed things that we were supposed to do and that she feels demotivated about it all. I have been accused of not being pro-active enough (although my folder is up to date considering all I have had to contend with personally) so I have been trying to do as much as I can in the classroom. My mentor is also assistant head so has a lot of work to do - so when at times I have tried to discuss the course with her - she has said it is not the right time for her (which I understand) however she seems to be holding my rocky start against me. Last week a very abrupt conversation took place (where I was mainly listening) about how she felt I was perhaps unfit to do the course (even though I have health checks stating otherwise) and also how my family member had not been dead all this time and she could not see how we will catch up on missed time (as the university reassured) in the next term. She has also accused me of not being professional as in my attempt to being pro-active I began to scribe some notes down on her introduction to a lesson last week whilst she was teaching which she stopped me from doing as she told me I should have discussed it with her (I do realise now in retrospect why she may not have liked this but I was trying to crack on and use initiative) In a meeting with the university, myself and the mentor she also said she feels I am not where I should be or she thought I would be (after my 5 years of TA experience in another school) and that I have become an irritation which she does not have time to bring up to scratch. This conversation took place whilst another member of staff was in the room. She will now only consider continuing the training if the uni are prepared to help me with my training plan instead of me and my mentor creating it. In my attempt to be pro-active, I discussed an issue with a parent today that had arisen at dinnertime regarding a child. However, my mentor accused me in the meeting later of being rude and not being professional as I should have consulted her before speaking to one of her parents. I did think I was being pro-active and also see the class as a shared one where we both can speak to parents but the mentor was not happy...also it was difficult for me to speak to her prior to this as a supply teacher was in the class today in place of her whilst she was busy so she was not available to speak to.I have also been accused of not knowing the children's names (which is untrue) and also just 'hovering' The latter is a result of being left to just observe due to my mentor not knowing the outcome of whether I was going to stay at the school until the meeting today and whenever I have tried to approach the training issue with her she has appeared annoyed. I voiced my opinions today that I feel like I have become a nuisance and treading on eggshells and my mentor in the presence of my head said I was right...I am treading on eggshells and I have become a nuisance. However, the training is still continuing at the school provided I have no further time off (I better not fall ill!) and the training plan is to the satisfaction of the mentor. I feel completely a nervous wreck, on edge and lost with all this...I have explained none of what has happened has been my fault and they say they understand that but the tolerance seems non existent. I feel like I am being set up to fail now (although my uni assure me that won't happen) and I have been told I have to work doubly hard to prove myself else I may be taken out the school if my mentor decides so. I am worried that this stress may result again in my health issues resurfacing as I do not feel at all supported. My university have decided to leave me at this school for now...my mentor is not at all happy with me...I have been labelled....and I really feel upset and depressed. I am still recovering from losing my family member but trying to plod on. Can anyone please advise me? School placements are hard to find...and I can not defer until I find another one as I can not afford to not be paid a salary in the time I may not have a school...but the school I am at, the relationship with the mentor looks difficult to mend...she dismissed most of what the university said after the meeting (which I can understand to a degree as she says they do not work in schools and do not know what goes on) but I feel like I am being punished for something I have no control over. I didn't ask to have ongoing health issues or for a bereavement. Please help me, I loved teaching until a few weeks back, was passionate about it...but now...I feel completely insecure and unconfident after being told I am not as good as expected and an irritation. What can I do? What are my rights? I do not want to leave GTP as once you leave it will be hard to get back on to any course...and I have always wanted to teach. But maybe this new school is showing me I can not.