Just got back to work after the easter break. Already had enough. I work in a secondary school. This is only my 6th month. I had a very disruptive year 9 English class. Glue was being thrown around the classroom while my back was turned, children were rude and would not be quiet when I was giving instructions or taking the register. It would be easy enough with only a handful disrupting the lesson but when I have a class of 31 and only 5 are behaving this causes me major problems. Halfway through I stopped the class and in a furious rage I yelled at how displeased I was with the state of the class. Four students were sent to isolation. The children did not care that they got sanctions and responded sarcastically when given them. I have depression and some anxiety issues, and this stress makes things much worse. While driving, have even had recurring thoughts of crashing my car head on into another driver to get out of having to live another day. Went home in an even worse mood than I had when I arrived to work. my partner was very supportive and calmed me down, and decided we should go out for dinner. For a short time I felt better. But I woke up feeling absolutely terrible, with what happened still fresh in my mind. I had an argument with my partner this morning over something very silly, (we don't usually argue). Now I am considering leaving my partner because it isn't fair that she should have to take on my stress and look after me. I should deal with this myself somehow. Accordingly, I am strongly considering handing in my notice at the end of the month, getting paid then looking for another job while living on the money I have. I would even go back to doing factory work or retail and getting minimum wage. What enjoyment I get out of life is only temporary now.