Your post seems to be an account of your situation rather than a question. Or are you hoping for suggestions of what you can do? Lots of people do jobs they hate and cannot leave because of circumstances. You just have to make the best of your situation (get through induction, make friends, carve out a career in the school) and continue to look for better jobs, or resign and go home. It sounds as if the latter is not an option. If you really want to do primary, I'd look for ways of doing primary/scondary transition activities in your school, voluntary work with primary school aged children etc. Life in secondary schools gets much easier when exam classes leave so only a few more weeks of chaos to go. September is new classes and a new start. Hang in there. This time next year you will probably feel much better about school and could be in a better position to move into the job you really want.