I was asked to be acting head of our small school (80+ pupils) from September 2009. I had already completed NPQH and was encouraged by all, including my own family, to apply for the headship when it was advertised. I was not shortlisted first time round and at first was not going to reapply, but decided to go for it again, and this time was successful. Unfortunately, with budget squeezes we no longer have the means to afford a deputy, so I am now on my own with a TLR. I love our school and am working hard to try and keep things going,but feel so stressed constantly. I have two teachers on maternity leave, one who has Year 6, and we have had little success in gaining a replacement so I am now teaching Year 6, trying to keep on top of the office work, managing a building project etc etc. On top of everything else my chair of governors has developed a habit of texting me whenever I do anything that he objects to (which seems to be pretty much constantly). I bitterly regret moving out of the classroom. I enjoyed being a deputy but feel weepy and anxious all the time now. I am currently looking for another position, but would another governing body look on me as a failure? I am hoping that my leadership experience would mean I would have more insight as to how to support a head, and fully understand and appreciate the pressures. I am at the point of just handing in my notice and going on supply, it is only the fact my husband has been laid off at Christmas that is preventing me from doing this. Does anyone know of anyone else who has made this 'backwards' step?