<font size="3">Hi everyone, </font><font size="3"> To cut a very long story short I am an experienced teacher of over 7 years majority (nearly all) within KS1 and FS. I had a horrible experience with bullying from my first Headteacher it was nothing personal to myself; just I was next on the bullying list. This really knocked my confidence and self believe. To be honest it made me ill and I never want to return to feeling that way again. </font><font size="3"> </font><font size="3">I moved to a smaller one-form entry school and up until recently have had fabulous times. I requested to move year groups to complete a maternity cover a few years back, as I felt I wasn't getting much CPD and wanted to enhance both my knowledge/ skills and CV. This was accepted but I was clearly told it was for one year only. </font><font size="3"> </font><font size="3"> As soon as I moved I knew it wasn't completely right but knew it was only for a year and I would learn a lot from the experience. Sadly it wasn’t so, as my Head requested that I stayed for "just one more year". I admit the staffing combination within 'my' year group is good and we all complement each other well - but it is not where I want to be. However I accepted it, said nothing and have happily continued for just one more year. Since then my head as told me again he wants me to remain, I reminded him of his promise allowing me to move but was told that no one else wanted to move down - so I had to be the one remaining?</font><font size="3"> </font><font size="3">I appreciate I sound like I am hating it but I actually don't. I love the school, staff and the children are fabulous but desperately want out of FS. I am so worried that I am going to become stale and have a poor professional development folder/CV. </font><font size="3"> </font><font size="3">Not only that but I am finding this time around in FS, that SMT have a very strict/keen interest in quantity of written work in literacy/numeracy books but LEA want 80%+ child initiated evidence in profiles, because I work in a mixed nursery/reception unit time with just my class is short (2 hours daily). I can't jump through both hoops at the same time. If I allow more time for one I get pull up about the other, not to mention profile moderation soon. </font><font size="3"> </font><font size="3">I don't want to fail or let anyone down but finding everyday more and more challenging. I'm even finding I'm waking up at night worrying about things I haven't found the time to complete at school; I work most of Saturday and plan on Sundays. Therefore I never get school out of my Head. </font><font size="3"> </font><font size="3">Due to my school being so small most staff are either members of MM or SMT, I kind of feel like I'm under the spotlight at the minute and always being watched or do they believe me to be naff at my job. I appreciated that because I feel low I could be over analysing things and winding myself up unnecessarily or do I just have time management issues? </font>At the minute I feel so snowed under and very lonely at school. Am I going mad or being very silly?