Hi all, Hope everyone is ok in the lead up to Christmas. Here is yet another mental health post to keep you going! I know you probably can't get enough of them! I am a NQT and have been signed off since the beginning of November due to anxiety and depression (I had a panic attack at school, fortunately my fabulous TA had a rare afternoon in class and was able to prevent the kids seeing too much). My illness has been up and down but I am in a very bad patch at the moment and have had a resurgence of the self-harming behaviour I had when I was a teenager. I have been to my GP and am on medication but can't access any talk therapies until January. As my 'loopies' as I call them are clearly deep-rooted, I feel I need this to get to the bottom of what's causing all my anxiety/depression but I have no doubt the stress of the job was part of it. I was only on a one-term cover contract so would have finished at Christmas anyway, but I'm just so frightened of going back into teaching. I haven't been this ill in a long time and just feel kids deserve better than me. All my experience is in education though - I taught English abroad, worked as a TA, did my PGCE - so I literally don't know what else I could do. I feel like I'll either be going to back to a job that exacerbates my illness or starting again from zero, with no clue where to begin. I'm not looking for advice really, just needed somewhere to vent this all out!