This is not a thread intended to find fault with atheism. I am genuinely interested in their answers and wish to compare them with my own pessimism. This post is going to be quite lengthy therefore I may have to break ìt up, working only with a smart phone. What has happened to my supreme optimism for life? Not my life, that I was going to live to a healthy, happy ripe old age, but my optimism was for the generations to come. As a young teacher I was fit and healthy. My optimism was that through school teaching I could make a difference. This lasted for about ten years (1966 to 76) when the pessimism set in. This realisation was promoted by my despair at the abusive management of the world's resources.