Where do I start. Started my NQT year in January on a maternity cover. School extremely challenging - don't get me wrong, I didn't think it would be easy and expected to have to work hard, but I didn't expect to be verbally abused on a daily basis. Even the most experienced teachers in the school have been reduced to tears by the behaviour of the pupils. Basically it's out of control. An Ofsted inspection is imminent so at least something will be done about it sooner rather than later. Despite the challenges of the school, I felt as if I was just about coping and took solace from the fact that it wasn't just me but a whole school issue. Then February half-term came along and my whole world was turned upside down by a sequence of devastating events. I was/am completely crushed. Went back to school after the half-term and struggled massively to make it through to Easter. The behaviour of the kids coupled with ongoing events at home made it near impossible to function, let alone teach, but I made it through and my aim was to re-group at Easter. Home situation has worsened over Easter and I am now in a position where I feel sick at the thought of going back to work. Like I have said, it was difficult enough initially, but I was in a better place mentally and felt strong enough to deal with it. Now I feel like a shell of my former self. My confidence is in ruins and I am now questioning whether I want to be a teacher at all. There is no way I can cope with the demands of being a teacher at the moment on top of everything that is happening at home. So I guess now I'm considering my options - as it's a maternity cover I need to give 4 weeks notice. I can't afford to not work at all so I need to have a job lined up before I leave this one. Despite not really feeling up to it, I have been looking for jobs - all different types of jobs. I think I'm going to apply for anything and everything - something manageble in my current state. My question is really to do with how all this will look to my current/future employers? Is it ok to have time out from teaching whilst I deal with this personal crisis at home? If I'm applying for 'ordinary' office jobs, who should I put down as a reference? I've also been looking at other roles in education which I perceive will be more manageble in my current state, but I do I explain wanting to back off from the stress of teaching at the moment whilst I re-adjust at home? I'm not even sure if I'll ever return to teaching to be honest the way I feel at the moment. I will be sad that I never completed my induction but at the minute my health is far more important. Sorry if all this makes no sense but nothing is making much sense at the minute, I think I just needed to vent all this.